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When we come up short. 

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In the face of the impossible he dared to speak, to offer all that they had, while knowing it wasn’t enough. 

Jesus saw the amount of people and I imagine He smiled to himself; the dilemma they were about to encounter already had a solution ready to be revealed.  The crowds had followed Him, desperate to see His healing power continue. As they gathered, Jesus turned to His disciples and asked…”Where can we buy bread to feed all these people?”

He drew their attention to a problem, revealed a need. How often has God turned your eyes or your heart to a specific crisis, heartbreaking issue, or overwhelming desperation. The addicted. The hungry. The hopeless. The innocent who have no voice. Or maybe its closer to home, yet just as impossible. The heart of a husband that is hardened? The rebellion of a child that seems too far gone? The habit that continues to lord its power over your life? The dream that seems unreachable? The hurt that won’t subside?

What impossible situation is sitting before you today?

Phillip stated the obvious…”even if we worked for months, we wouldn’t have enough money to feed them!” With a bit of drama (worked for MONTHS..) he makes an observation…that even if we diligently worked towards this single goal with all that we had, we would still come up short. He spoke of their lack, he identified the gap, he highlighted their inability to even make a dent in this situation. Phillip was using his physical eyes to assess a spiritual problem. His perspective saw their apparent disadvantage, and didn’t take into account the miracle-working Jesus who asked the question.

I find that in my own life, all to often, I see myself and others through what I don’t possess. Why that won’t work. Why I can’t do it. It is easy to call out the faults in another person, or their apparent lack of skill, or to disqualify ourselves based on our shortcomings. But through this very well-known story God showed me the faith of Andrew.

“Then, Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, spoke up. ‘There’s a young boy here with five barley loaves and two fish. But what good is that with this huge crowd?'”

He spoke up. He dared to be made a fool. He risked being mocked, and with great God inspired boldness he stepped out… then quickly undermined it. His assurance rapidly dissolved into doubt, his attempt at optimism and hope was smashed with the physical reality crashing in.  What they had was pitiful, it paled in comparison to the need, to the task at hand.

It was so meager that it could have easily been passed over, Andrew could have seen what they had available and he could have decided it wasn’t even worth offering. He could have kept silent. It could have been overlooked and neglected as invaluable, but instead he raised his voice and his offering, he just didn’t stay there long enough.

When God calls us to believe big, our challenge is to never second guess Him. I can be quick to step out in faith and if I am not intentional to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus and His power, the feeling of inadequacy with shove me back into my comfort zone and I will rescind my “yes” and allow it to vaporize into a “nevermind”.

And yet, with that meager, seemingly insignificant contribution, both of food and of faith, (no matter how brief) he didn’t just speak of what they had, he displayed a deep, life changing belief in the multiplying, expanding, increasing, magnifying, broadening Jesus. And it was all that Jesus needed to act. Alone, the small basket, not even full of fish and bread was worthless in comparison to what they faced, but when offered, when laid at the feet of Jesus, their deficiency became their sufficiency. Their lack became their abundance. Their weakness became their strength. Their lack of sight became their vision.

Today, acknowledge what you DO have, lift it before Jesus and let Him magnify it. Watch for the miracle. Watch your influence expand, your love enlarge, your resources multiply, and your compassion deepen. More importantly…do this for someone else. Call out their strength, speak of what they do have, what they can do, and how they will be used, do not allow your perception of their lack to effect your belief in what your GOD can do in and through them. Who can you encourage today? Who needs you to see past their mistakes, their failures, their choices, or their personality…and deep down into their potential, their possibility??

Stop stating the obvious, or letting it limit God.

Rather, dare to speak boldly into the impossible, eagerly anticipating the multiplying-God to show up with more than just “possible”, but with twelve-baskets-of-leftover-food possible. 🙂

Beholding his Glory with you in the impossible.

 

How is pain shaping you?

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Pain has a way of changing us. How, and into what, is up to us. One thing we can be sure of in this life, pain in many forms will come. A relationship lost or broken, a dream unrealized, abuse, choices made or made for us…yes, pain carves and erodes and shapes like a river slowly etching away. Each of us experiences different forms of pain, and yet we can all relate to feeling the sting of injustice, or being alone, disappointed, angry, fearful, betrayed, and confused. We all have pain in common. What sets us apart from one another is what we choose to believe and do when we experience pain.

Joseph said it three times to them in the midst of his joy…”It was God”, “God has sent me ahead of you”, “It was God.” He was letting them off the hook, these brothers standing in front of him who were in desperate need. They were subject to his rule and authority, vulnerable and scared. He could have done anything to them, after all, he was second in command behind Pharaoh. Options included throwing them in jail, having them killed, torturing them, or leaving them to the mercy of the raging famine.  His brothers whose jealousy and insecurities had led to a special hatred of him, who sold him, which directly led to him being a slave, wrongfully accused, imprisoned and forgotten; stood helpless in front of him. And yet, we see Joseph free from all bitterness and anger, he welcomes, invites, makes a way for their families to live, and gives them the best of what he has to offer. HOW? WHY?

The temptation to blame and get deeply and intensely angry was ever present for years, I am sure. Nothing had been fair. And yet Joseph displays an eternal hope grounded in an unshakable belief that Gods plan for him, and for them, was bigger than his current circumstances or pain and could not be thwarted. Through every unthinkable event Joseph remains steadfast, consistently planting seeds of mercy, forgiveness and love in his heart, while uprooting the weeds of contempt, anger, and bitterness. No, the Word doesn’t spell this out, and yet I am confident that much can be discerned through his actions and words as he met his brothers face to face.

Our actions and words are only by-products of the beliefs we plant and nurture.

God has shown me multiple things from this part of Josephs story, found in Genesis chapter 45, that He has led me to apply and learn from. They have been a great encouragement to me and I hope they will be to you as well.

Surrender is always the road to lasting victory. How do you define victory? Being right? Getting your way? Demolishing your opponent? None of these bring life. The satisfaction is empty, the “winning” temporary. The worlds’ definition of victory leaves us desolate and barren, God’s definition of victory, through the path of surrender and forgiveness leads to life, joy and peace. Jesus, while depending on His Father, exemplified surrender, to the point of death. Death on a cross. He surrendered to the will of his Father, which led to victory over the grave, and because of that I was granted a life I did not deserve. Josephs life of surrender led to his families survival and life, to victory.

Forgiveness must be a way of life. He did not wallow. There was no self-pity. When he came face to face with his brothers he was harboring no vengeance or anger, he was free from all of that to love. He did not use His power to punish or harm, destroy or degrade, his position and power was given to save their lives. He was not a victim, through Christ he was an overcomer. His daily choice to forgive gave him the power to embrace, he wasn’t chained to any contempt or malice, instead his heart leapt with joy to see them and welcome them.

God’s bigger picture trumps my experience. Josephs ability to see God at work in all his suffering was the open door to experiencing all joy and grace and peace. It was always bigger than him. It was about people. Nations, even.

Christs’ love is wider, deeper, reaches farther, and does not have an expiration date. That person who hurt you? They are deeply and fiercely loved by God, just as you are. His heart is for them, and for you, and He is working on their behalf, and yours. They are not the enemy, God will forever pursue them and you with an earth-shattering, mountain-moving, miracle-working love. It is His great pleasure to invite you into the greatest adventure of wildly loving people who don’t act lovable.

I have been spiritually gifted and can operate in this gifting in every circumstance and situation. No situation or circumstance is too small or insignificant to warrant my excellence. Whether in a prison or pharaoh’s palace, at home or on stage, with my family or with strangers. God has gifted me in supernatural ways and without the chains of anger, bitterness or revenge I am free to experience His great power at work in me. Supernatural gifts yield supernatural results when I stop comparing my audience or work to someone else’s. Joseph operated in his gifting of leadership in every conceivable situation. What situations are you in now that you aren’t operating in your gifting simply because you are blinded by, or in bondage to unforgiveness, anger or bitterness?

There are a few places in my life where it is evident I have harbored hurt, and unresolved anger. There is a bondage I have experienced and this part of Josephs story has encouraged me to uproot the lies of the enemy and live in daily surrender, keeping guard of my heart. Because we will all face the crossroads that Joseph did, and when I do I want to behave in accordance with who I am, full of grace and mercy.

“Time grows the seeds that are planted, watered and fertilized. Plant beauty, grow beauty. Plant thorns, grow thorns. Time will allow for either”. – Lysa Terkeurst.

Beholding His Glory in the daily surrender,

Be still, and MOVE.

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I can imagine him yelling it while urgently trying to get their attention.

“DONT BE AFRAID!!”

He got some of their attention, but most of them are still screaming and crying and panicking. He jumps onto a rock to get a better vantage point, wiling them with his mind and grand gestures to shift their focus from their impending doom to his words that seem to be getting taken on the wind…

“Just STAND. STILL. And watch the Lord rescue you today!”

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They all begin to take deep breaths. Not fully trusting or understanding, but surrendering to a new option…because the chariots racing down the hill that have come to reclaim them are not stopping and anything is better than that! Moses lowers his voice and speaks clearly, yet, passionately.

“The Eqyptians you see today will never be seen again.”

They all turn back to look at the ground that has been covered by their enemies, gathering the children, taking a few steps closer to one another. Hoping against all hope that what Moses says is true, as they cautiously glance at one another.

“The Lord himself will FIGHT FOR YOU” Moses yells. “Just STAY CALM”

I underline, rewrite and find such encouragement in these words. YES. This. Stand still, watch as the Lord rescues you, fights for you…stay calm. love it.

Then I keep reading…

Then the Lord says to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me?”

um…the army. they are coming. fast. our joy was so short lived. you are our only hope…thats why?

“Tell the people to GET MOVING!”

I stop.

Wait. What happened to stand still? And staying calm? Those don’t quite jive with the urgent call to set out and move forward. So which one is it? I re-read it, and begin to let it sink in. I realize that this seeming contradiction of choices is still striving for dominance in my own life, even now. This balance of resting, trusting, staying calm while doing the next thing, moving forward, taking action is still causing me some hesitation. They can and do go together, work together. right?

In my soul, my emotions can be running a-muck, wreaking havoc, and having a hay day…in my own life there are moments, situations, even seasons where I am terrified, fearful and very scared. Paralyzed by anger, jealousy or confusion. My emotions do not “stand still” or “stay calm” very well. There is no stopping them, no squelching them. Best case scenario I ride them out, but in the face of all these valid emotions Moses speaks “stand still, stay calm, watch as the Lord fights for you, and how He rescues you.”

If this wasn’t a possibility I don’t think he would have asked it of them. As impossible as it seems, this posture of stillness and calmness can be achieved, can be experienced. Obedience is possible in spite of extreme emotions.

In just the last few weeks the Lord had revealed His might, His power. He had revealed to the Egyptians and the Isrealites alike that He was the Lord. The Almighty One. The One True God. Moses knew that in the face of all this chaos their emotions could be overcome with a simple act of remembrance. The Lord comes through. Its what He does. Probably just in the knick of time, and most likely not in the exact way you wanted or felt necessary but still…He. Came. Through. When we remember what the Lord has done for us, we take a stand on His faithfulness. We watch with expectation, trusting that His heart is for us, as He works through the situation. The storm inside us calms as He speaks to it, “I will fight for you today, just as I did yesterday, you will be victorious”.

And then He asks us to move. In this story it was clear…they needed to get up and literally move out, journey through, depart from that place physically, and the Lord made a way where there was none. Not each situation that I find myself in is as clear as to which direction I am to move, but the request…or should I say decree, is clear. MOVE. Don’t stay where you are. With your soul set firmly on His truth and your soul clinging to Peace, the person of Peace, you are then able to clearly follow, move, set out. Obey.

Following Him requires a resolve to turn from the present/past issue, in most cases that has yet to be resolved, and set out on a new path. That relationship that is not yet healed, yet you are equipped to love and forgive. The financial crisis that has not yet been covered, so you pray specifically and trust, (maybe get a second job) but ultimately He is our great provider. The medical diagnosis that is still hanging in the balance, but you daily draw from His Grace, His life. So many questions that have no answers, no visible fruit of our work, dreams that have not come to fruition…be still. God is moving, He is working…move forward trusting His heart. Take the next step knowing His Power and Might go before you, and remain behind.

There is a work that cannot be seen by our human eyes, but can only be trusted with an eternal perspective.

We all know how the story progresses, the Lord moves His fiery presence in-between the Israelites and their enemy, opens up a path for them to cross the red sea, confuses the army and “twists” the chariot wheels, and ultimately delivers them safely and decisively to the other side of the Red Sea, while destroying 600 Egyptions. And as the people watch the miraculous happen they “realize the tremendous power of God”, and sang praises to Him declaring “God is my strength, my song, my salvation”, asking “who compares with you in power, in holy majesty, in awesome praises, wonder-working God?’ (msg)

Today, be still. Stand and watch as the Lord fights for you, stay calm. Renew your mind, (moment by moment if needed) set it on the faithfulness of God reminding yourself of His goodness, and His power that He has displayed in your life, because then you will hold your peace. And move. Move in Love. Move in peace. Move into a journey with Him, day by day, focusing on and looking for what He might be doing next.

Beholding His Glory,